After Months of Trying to Figure Things Out, I'm Finally At Peace At Being A Work-In-Progress

After months of trying to figure things out, I'm finally at peace at being a work-in-progress

1/1/2017

“The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else's highlight reel.” - Steven Furtick

I haven't written anything on my blog since August. If you've been wondering why, it's not because I've quit (which should be obvious by now because I'm back). I decided to give it a break until (as cheesy as it may sound) I figure out who I am and who I really wanted to be. It only makes sense because it's hard to move on and keep going without understanding where I am headed.

When you're confused with your identity and purpose, you're more likely to get paralyzed. Add to this the unnecessary pressure that comes from benchmarking yourself with your peers, you'll definitely end up having the recipe for misery and insecurity -- which is why all of a sudden blogging felt like it was an obligation ("I have to do at least one post a week, month so I can reach my goals, etc"). Thus, as you might have noticed, I ended up posting zero.

Now I think I've had enough of that. I feel like blogging again. I feel like it's about time to enjoy it and stop overthinking. I still don't know who I really want to become and, obviously, how to get there. But it's okay, I'm now at peace with the fact that I'm a work-in-progress.

I'm on a journey towards becoming my best self.

The exact destination? Only God knows what, where, when, and how. One thing I know: God has the best plan for me and He'll get me there. Thus, I need only to trust and honor Him in all things that I do.

For sure it's not going to be easy. As I keep saying, we are all fallible humans -- we break and fail others (and sometimes ourselves) despite our best efforts and intentions. Yet, we can always hold on to hope. We can hope that this whole journey is going to be worth it; that we'll be able to get to where we were meant to be -- eventually.

This 2017, there are several things that I'm believing God for: my giving, career, personal growth, and relationships. Looking at it, seems like some of my goals are never going to happen; but I'm stretching my faith.

One of the best advice I heard this 2016 is this: Quiet down your unbelief. As Dennis Sy had said, it is not our job to answer prayers. That is God's job. Our job is to exercise our faith and believe God for what we think is impossible.

Understanding that I'm a work-in-progress leaves me at peace with my mistakes and insecurities. It brings the hope and excitement towards what is to come. When I make mistakes, I don't feel like a failure, instead I am challenged.

I only got to realise this when I understood that life is not about living perfect lives and having it all figured out. It's about journeying through the ups and downs -- walking, growing, and sharing lives with other people.

Thanks to everyone who have been part of my 2016!

(I'm sorry I can't put everyone's photo in here ✌🏼️)

So grateful to all the friends, colleagues, and acquaintances I met here in Dubai. May your 2017 be filled with blessings!